I finished my first day of finals, and I’m TERRIFIED of the outcome. Specifically, my anatomy and physiology class. If I don’t pass, I don’t get to go to SFSU and I have to stay here in Sacramento and go to ARC. I don’t wanna go to college here. Not that it’s bad or anything, but I have ALWAYS imagined myself going away for college after high school. Staying in one place isn’t me anymore. I have to keep moving. It just gets me so doubtful and I worry to the extreme at the end of the semester. It always freaks me out, every year, if I pass or not. That’s just me. Tomorrow’s the second half of finals and it will define me if I pass or not. I’ve worked so hard to get to this point and knowing that I’m on the edge makes me feel like I’m just gonna fail in the end. But maybe that’s just one side of me being a perfectionist. Or maybe I’m being pathetic and freaking out over nothing.